Practicing Patience
Affirmation: I choose to calmly accept that things can happen in a difference order than the one I had in mind.
Chromium Petrified Wood: Taurus; Root Chakra; Increases longevity; Mental balance; Grounds and stabilizes; Support from our ancestors; Assists in finding a mentor.
Change seems slow, but once the realization comes that time is only an illusion, that’s when we cut free from the confines of the mind and start experiencing truth.
These last four months have felt like 5 years. Change expedited. All I can say really is, I need a big ol’ sleep and heaps of petrified wood to ground me.
Life is an accumulative effort. Old Growth Forests take millions of years to form, yet here they appear (to our brief 100 years on Earth if we’re lucky), strong, stable, and unchanging, but everyday they shift and expand. All the time I’ve spent digging around their roots for rocks, I feel it, in fact, my footprint contributes to their change.
One of my favorite quotes about trees comes from a haunting scene in the Revenant:
When there is a storm and you stand in front of a tree, if you look at its branches, you swear it will fall. But if you watch the trunk, you will see its stability.
- Grace Dove
It’s challenging as an Artist, I’ve been weaving since 2015. I hardly have much of a following by “Meta standards”, I haven’t made enough income to be deemed a "small business by the government. I don’t have a storefront. I still put my focus on crafting pendants only - but hey, I’m patient.
I continue to show up for this craft time and time again. Time and dedication have proven I’ve forged an unbreakable connection and commitment to this craft.
Even in times when I have to play the game and join the corporate world to earn a living, which as I experience consumes heaps of energy, still I am patient, I do my craft in shorter bouts. Sometimes only once every few months could I find the time and energy to craft just one relic.
I’ll admit, I still struggle not to beat myself up about it, I practice caution in comparison of myself to other Artists who seemingly had an endless storehouse of energy to funnel into their craft. But with compassion now I can see, what time I give has to be enough for where I am at. When I find myself suffering from grief, living in survival mode, choosing unhealthy relationships and work environments, I am patient.
“When I planted my pain in the field of patience, it bore fruit of happiness.”
- Kahlil Gibran
I am starting to see things more clearly now. With the trust I’ve built over the past ten years, I’m ready to open up more space and time for my craft. Still, I am patient. Ten more years of this, let’s see how I’ve grown.
Keep coming back to the craft you love, even if only to validate yourself. If it's of service, if it makes you feel well and joyful, it is lights your heart on fire, keep practicing, keep learning, keep on dreaming, keep on crafting.
With love and learning,
Amber Wolfe
